My relationship with him, how it started and how it ended....

Assalammualaikum my friends. I just went through both good and a bad week. The good thing about the week is that we were interviewed by Harian Metro and the story about our product will be out soon. The bad part about the week is my relationship with my ex-boyfriend is finally over. Here I'm gonna talk about my relationship with him.

Previously I was working for a Media Company in Kelana Jaya. I was the Event Manager there. I have always been a free spirited, happy go lucky, don't give a damn about what people say about me, don't give a damn about what I do to myself, where I go, what to where and etc..etc.. I just love to have fun, hangout with friends and go shopping. 

One fine day, The HR Manager told there will be this new intern coming in to work for one of the other subsidiaries company. He is doing IT. Wow that's nice. I looked at his bio, kinda cute and intelectual I guess and have been to school in the UK. I have always dig guys who speaks very well in English because I was also brought up in United States. He was 24 years old and I was 31 years old. 7 years age difference. But that could have worked right?

I think it was somewhere in August I think that he joined our group of family. He was tall, dark and kinda handsome. So the HR Manager introduced him to everybody including me. We shake hands and I was thinking (he kinda looks a bit funny though). I greeted him with welcome to the family. 

When he joined us, he looked kinda shy and anti social. Was it because he is shy or not friendly. He was close to one of the Admin lady and always hang out at the stairs to have a ciggy break with her. Then sometimes I would be around there also, but he was not really talking to me though. hahaha. Anyways, everyday I would say hi to him "hi Saiful!". Then he would say it back. Sometimes I would also invite him to watch a movie but he always rejected the offer. One day, he finally agreed to go out for the movie. We went just the five of us, we watched Death Race at that time. It was a great movie. After the movie we went to uptown to have supper. We talked, I was like paying more attention to him than I was paying attention to my friends. That's when I felt the chemistry. Later in our relationship he told me that was when he fell in love with me. He felt it too.

We started to talk on the phone, send sms to each other, go on YM. Then one day, I just totally ignored him. Is that bad? He was like asking people why is she like that? Why is she not talking to me? Well then a little bird told him why. It was because of what he said to me in one of our conversations, "you are out of my league". I didn't understand what that meant, but then he finally told me that it actually meant that I am far more better than him. I was relieved. I thought I wasn't.

We planned together a friends farewell dinner and that's when we became so much closer. During the first few weeks of the friendship, you only see the goodness and positive things about a person that you see pass the flaws. How great being in love is right? 

We continued talking on the phone everyday, played a game of who sleeps first. The person who sleeps first loses. We of course I always lose. He always comes up with the reason, I will totally win because I am still a student. Oh ok then. it one of our conversation, he has asked me, "can we be brothers and sisters?" Well of course I said "okay". Even though a bit frustrated, but I am still okay with that. I do like him, but I don't love him yet. Then after that, he said "You know what, I take that back, because maybe 1 day I might want you to be my girlfriend". I'm like, huh? okay then.

So then, we started going out, talking on the phone, SMS each other, hang out at the stairs for ciggy break. One day on 20th September 2008, he finally asked me to be his girlfriend. I totally said yes! The first few months on the relationship went well and all we see are just starts, beautiful things, flowers, lovey dovey. I even helped him to open his Facebook Account. IT people don't do social networking he says. Whatever!! Then he had to go back to his hometown because he finished his Bachelor Degree. It was a long distance relationship. We still managed. At that time I was still doing my own thing, having fun, hangout with friends and other stuff. He didn't really care what I do at that time.I do receive some disturbing sms from him though but let's not get into that right now. 

Somewhere in December 2009 I think, he told me he got an offer to do his Masters at UNITAR. At first he said he just wanted to stay at his hometown and help his dad out, but then he said he wanted to continue his studies bank in Kelana Jaya for an advancement in his education and also to be near me. Isn't that sweet? 

He moved back here and rented a room at Kelana Park View. We see each other practically everyday and go out everyday. We just miss each other all the time. Then these fights started. One of it was because of something I said that he couldn't accept. I really don't know why I brought it up. We were so in love and he still thinks I was out of his league. The next day, he had to go off for a holiday with his family (a mother's son). He left a notepad letter in my car. Can you believe that? What an loser. He didn't have the guts to say it to me in the face? He has no balls man! He sms me to look for the letter. Then I read it. he totally wanted to break up with me. WTF. What an asshole. I called him like 20 times I guess, as he was on a bus on the way to Kemaman. I was crying like crazy and he said he just couldn't do it with me. About the statement and also about me not wearing a scarf. So I let it cool for a while. he asks about me through our friends. Why does he need to know about me? He left right? Just go! 

Then he came back. I wanted to see him, told him to say it to my face. Explain to me. He said because of the age factor, his parents not liking me and me not wearing a scarf. We talked awhile at the pool, and then the mosquito bites started to bite so we took the car and drove around. We talked again, and at then we were back together again. 

After that, I said to him I would wear a scarf soon. I started wearing a scarf during fasting month of year 2009. I was happy with him and of course I want to make him happy to. I loved him so much that I was willing to sacrifice for him. Give and take right? Me and him we have a chemistry that no one else would have. We finish our sentences, we think the same, we even send sms to each other at the same time. That is what I call chemistry. Every time that happens we would go tinit tinit!!

So started out with not going to my favorite place in KL (HRC) and then wearing the scarf. Then gradually some of the attitudes that he doesn't like about me. I became a different person. I didn't care then, because I loved him, he is always there for me, he shows his love and care for me. What else would I want? Here is before and after picture of me.

Before

After

 At Time Square, we had a big fight. Of course it was about me again he says, my attitude just doesn't change. Especially because I just want to be with him 24 7 he says. he needs the time and space for himself and his friends. So then I said okey fine let's just go with the flow and see how it goes. Then we were okey.

some of the lovey dovey messages that he sends to me that made me feel I was betrayed

I gave him his space to study, to be with his friends. At the same time also, I started to hang out with my friends more. That went well. Less fights but more missing him and having more fun with him. Then to make this long story short on 28th April 2011. He sent me a message on Facebook saying that he was sorry to send this on FB and he wanted to break up with me. What the hell? We didn't fight, no nothing. I thought everything was going so well. In his message, he says there are still some of the attitudes in me that he still didn't like and also it was the age factor again. if you really wanted to leave say it in front of my face like long time ago. Don't just make someone think that everything is alright and they start to love you and trust you even more. Just do it earlier and whatever it is don't look back, don't cry with the her if you think you will not be able to do then. Just leave straight away. have the balls and guts to do that. 

He says there are some things he doesn't like about me and I still do it, does he think I'm an angel or something? That I am Fu*ckin Perfect? No flaws nor imperfection? WTF. Which planet are you on MAN? Nobody is perfect in this world. You also have your imperfections too you know and a lot of them, it's just that I don't tell you because I feel that when you love someone you will go past those imperfections and see that the person is Perfect! That is what you call love. Now we know, how dishonest he was in our relationship. Not being truthful as I was to him. 

This relationship with him was the most hurtful one of all my other relationship in the past. he showed his love and his care for me. You wouldn't really believe that we would break up like this right? Surprised? Yeah me too! It taught me a lot of things which is to never change yourself to a different person for someone and also know the person well enough to actually trust him and to get in a relationship with that person and also friends will definitely be there for you during your bad times because they care and love you so much. Thanks Widy, Dian, Joanne, Lyn, Linda, Suzana, Norlin, Ziela, and all my other friends who gave me advices and to move on with my life.

So NEXT!! HAHAHA xoxo ;)